12012012

I think I should feel happy right now but I feel lost and lonely.

I finished my economy paper today. I think the question is not that tough for me.

I am tired, before the economy paper,I have a group study for this subject from 12pm until 5am.

Is crazy,right?We discussed many theory and try to find out the answer for all the past year que.

But the question come out in exam is easy!LOL!

At that night,I almost collapse.

I worry my macroeconomy. I am weak in this subject.

I feel tension and worry.

I seek for support, but unfortunately I not mange to get any support from others.

I feel so down and unhappy.

Sometimes,I just need somebody let me talk to and calm me down.

Talk to me I can do it and try to motivate me but no demotivate me.

Don't make me feel like stupid.

When I try to tell you something, but you just ignore me.

I am not easy to tell someone what I worry .

I can pretend very well but for the person I believe to, I am just like a kid.

I am disappointed with the respond they give me!

Recently,I keep thinking is that conflict between AIESEC and friends.

No doubt, my friends around me are dislike AIESEC.

Keep saying is too busy and will lost your personal time.

Yea,I admit it if you are joining project.

But,I like project!=)

Sem 1 is going to end.

When I think back, AIESEC is the big part in my life.

I think I gotta rearrange my time in the coming sem.

I think I put too much time on it and I miss out the time with friends.

I hope I manage to do it.

I feel I am a failure.

Sometimes when I am in a damn down mood, I don't know who should I find and talk to.

Memories.RED Wave

I don't know why I will miss my RED Wave Team at this moment.=)
I am studying,but my mind is keep appearing the memories with them.

I have been the OCFA for last two months.
I hate FA stuff but I try to accept it and do it well.
Why I hate?It is because too systematic and many papers works.
I dislike paper work stuff.I feel bored.
But after two months, I changed my mindset.
I feel happy when I master the paper works.
Before a project start,we need paper works to get permission for UUM.
So,the paper works is important,right?=D haha.
No doubt,in the whole process ,I make a lot of mistakes and I learnt.
I learnt one important lessons through this:
Don't escape from the problems,but try to face and solve it.
You will learn something through the process.=)

I think I am crazy.
I miss the moment rush the paper works.It is stress yet fun.
Then send the papers works at 11.59pm to VPFA,hui yi!I feel successful and happy!=]
Actually it is very stress when I want open my mail.
Especially I saw Hui yi and Ee Mei's email.
But now, I miss it.
My mail box is become so quiet.=(

I miss every single one of them in my team.
Thank you for create a good memories together.
The meetings, the event, PA, trouble shooting,bonding,our interns.
It is a very good memories to you and me.
We growth through the mistakes.
I hope next sem,We will be more strong and close to each others.
I love u guys so much!

I will never regret to be OC RED Wave!=)

I am proud with it!=D

At the same time, I miss AG/GT!

Square dance and roll callllll!=D

How are you,AIESECers?

Keep fighting in ur final!=D

See u all in MyLDS!=)

我想你

两年了，今时今日的我看了你的部落，我还是泪了。
我真的想你了。

一直以来，我都很避免要进去你的部落，我没有那个勇气，睹物思人。
我不知道自己为什么今天要去看你的部落。
我不知道眼泪为什么要出来。
我不知道为什么时间已经酱久了，我还是会泪。
心现在是澎湃的，一直在想着你。

以为时间是最好的解药，其实好像没有。
以为自己对你的离开，已经可以接受，好像并不是酱的。
以为自己可以读完你的部落，一滴泪都不掉，失败了。

两年前的今天，你离开了我们。
我还记得那个晚上，我和仔仔是多么的痛。
我记得你还剩25个礼拜要回家了。
我记得你还欠我的礼物。
可是，你离开了。

两年来，活动和课业上的繁忙，让我渐渐的把对你的思念减到最低。
只是，我上了大学后，第一次回家，我看到伯母在哭。
我想她是在想你吧。
其实我想大家都再想吧。
只是都有默契，不说出来，免得大家伤感。

大盈毕业了，现在也做工了，自己买车了。
大仔也毕业了，在等成绩，希望能上大学。
很不可思议的，你的家人和我的家人现在是邻居了。
今年的过年，应该很好玩，可惜少了你。

现在人在外地，还真的有时候会想起你。
当初的你是怎样做这个和那个？
我想问你的意见。

一直以来，都有像你的想法，出国看更大的世界。
我很想出国，可是我现在会挂心爸爸妈妈。
我很想不顾一切往外跑，可是狠不下心。
有时候，还蛮觉得你蛮狠心的，讲走就走。

我不知道今晚我是怎么了。
我只知道，两年前的今天，世界末日了。

你现在在哪里？天堂美吗？
记得要做最美的天使，继续保佑我们。

我会以你为榜。
我一定会尽我所能，在我离开这世界以前，去完成我的梦和目标。

今夜献给敢于往自己梦想奔跑的你。
你的岁月也许短，可是每一天都是有意义的。
你完成你的梦。


时间也许淡化了对你的思念，可是抹不掉你在我心中的痕迹。
思念就像一个疤痕，一旦撕开了，心还是会觉得痛。


我爱你，亲爱的姐姐。

今夜，想念你了。

06012012

Yes,I finished my Maths paper.
Emm,overall was not bad.
Thanks God, the questions is come out from past year!=)
At least, I can do and I know the step.
Yeap,I cannot be greedy.
I not dare to aim an A in this paper.
I just hope I can pass it!=D
I know where is my level!=(

Last night,I insomnia again.
Why?
It is because of this Maths paper!
It is very stupid,right?
I don't know why I will like this.
I am just nervous and worry that I may be will retake this paper in next sem.
I slept less than 2 hours then I go to sit for this paper.
Luckily,I still manage to do it!=)
Thanks to Haw Yuan who willing to teach me!
You are damn good,even post the solution to me in facebook!=D

After this paper,I planed to have a long nap and burn midnight oil tonight.
But mission FAIL!
Why?
I just lay down wan to sleep but my phone rang!zzz
Then continue with study tomorrow's paper-Asas Keusahawanan!

Yea,now I am damn energetic.
My brain is still fresh but my body is a bit tired.
I think I am crazy!
I wish tonight I will sleep well and rest well!


All the best to my friends in this exam!=)
Kill all the papers,then we can go back HOME!
Chinese New Year is just around the corner!=)



I discover something.
I start scare and feel like run away.
At the same moment,I keep asking myself,why I don't want face it?
It is alright if I fail to do it,I will not lose anything.
I hope I have enough courage and confident to do it!=)
Fighting！

Good luck!

At this moment,I am damn scare and afraid!

Why?

Because of tomorrow's paper!!

What paper so scary?

Drummmmm Rolll!!!

Answer is :Maths For Economy!


I have no idea on it.

I try hard to love and learn it.

But when I see the past year question paper,i fed up!

Dont matter how,I will fighting to the last!

God,please bless me for tomorrow's paper.

I really stress on it!=(



I am wonder,

I am not good in maths,how can I choose Economy course?!

I think I will suffer at least for 4 more sem.

I will have at least one maths paper in each coming sem.

Good luck to me!=)





Please pray for me so that I can pass it!

Seriously I need LUCK!!!!=)

聊。忆

刚刚和一个朋友聊了一下下。
其实还蛮吓到她会和我分享。
是高兴的。
也要说，对不起。
我不是不要分享我的，只是我还过不了自己的那关。
我不是不要说，我是过不了自己的那关。
我怕我说我的故事了，我以后会开始依靠一个人。
万一哪天，我失去了依靠，我会伤心。
我知道了失去的痛和无奈。
从里头要爬起来，我经历过，很难。
所以，我情愿我还是一个人，不要依靠。
酱子，我还有勇气继续坚强。
如果哪天，我真的对你说了，我一定是鼓起了很大的勇气。=）

现在，我可以了解了之前有人对我说过的一句话。
曾经，你我那么接近爱情，
如今，你我切渐行渐远。


今晚，不知道怎么的，特别想念一个人。
找他聊天了，感觉好好，好久没有这感觉了。
我喜欢他默默地支持我，爱我。
谢谢你，从来不曾怨我。
虽然我真的很忙，忙到不能关心你。
可是我需要你，你永远在。=）
真的很爱你啊！=）


现在，我察觉到了。
15天后我可以回家了。=）
我期待的MyLDS也要到了，可是CD team 的工还有一堆。
头也开始痛了.
travic 啊，我一定消除掉你我之间的隔膜!
对你，真的有挫败感。=（
加油。



考试加油。

晚安啦。

New Year's Resolutions =]

1.08am,at this moment,I think I should on my bed.
But, I think I am insomnia.
My body is very tired ,but I don't know why I still sit in front of the laptop.=)

Yeah, is a brand new year again.
Is time to set a goal for this brand new year.=)
I wish I can spend more time with my beloved family.<3
I wish my friends all stay health and our friendship can continue.
I wish my result is around 3.33.
I wish to explore more and develop more!=)
I wish I can be more tough and stronger.=)
I wish I will be part of the MT in AIESEC.
I wish I can continue crazy and enjoy my life.=)


Happy belated new year!=)
I have been so long time never write blog in english.
Start from now,I will try to use it.=)