You have a letter :)

Dear all,

I think you guys will wonder, why you can't open my blog recently? Anything happened on me?Today, I am here to clear your doubt. Yeap, snoopy is fine. Don't worry. I just need some time to digest all the things. I just wish to be alone for some time and I will recover. =D

And now, I can tell you, snoopy is BACK!=D

Previously, yeap, I am too tired. I din take good care on myself . Everything become worst. Is time for me to take a break and restart again. I back to my lovely home and recharged myself. It works.

I think I just need a break and personal time. Just run to some where to relax.=D

I am really fine. I really ok with I din pass the VoC. At least I know I do my best and I go through the whole process. The journey is so long, the chance will have again.=D The most important things is keep moving.Who knows I din pass the VoC is good for me?=D Who knows God is arranged something great for me at behind?=) Let's see.:)

Well, I need say CONGRATULATION to those who get elect!!=D Good job !!

Last but not least, good luck to everyone on the midterm exam and start countdown for HOME SWEET HOME!=D

I am very happy just because I killed one assignment!HAHAH!=)

p/s: This message belongs to someone who I love and care:

1. what happened on u?=D recently so emo? come share share la!=D Don't make me no dare to near u leh.=D I love u and I will always here.

2. Take good care on your study and I will tell you something when we meet!=)

Your Beloved,

snoopy

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家

病倒了。

之前身体一直有给讯号了，一直不要去理它。

Project已经够忙了，assignment跟着来。

根本没时间生病。

有句话说，

不得空休息的人，一定得抽点时间生病。

我真的好像符合这句话。

生病真的很难过。

第一次，那么的想家。

想念被妈妈照顾，被妈妈念去喝水，喝凉茶。

就是想回家就对了。

昨天，真的病得还蛮严重的。

发烧了。=.=

第一次，这个样子。

撑着累到不行的身体去上课。

朋友叫我回家算了，当下买了车票回家。

过后，上课去。

也幸亏有去上课，pop quiz。

接下来的课，根本没在听。

我真的辛苦到不行了，甚至吐了。

整天没胃口。

可是就是想吐。

第一次觉得，我真的得休息了。

回家了，感觉真好。

看着妈妈担心的脸，真的很对不起。

我没有好好的照顾自己。

谢谢你愿意在我最需要你的时候在我的身边。

在家的这几天，实在太幸福了。

虽然病了，什么都不能吃。

可是还是觉得太好了。

只想赖在家，不想出门。

真的有休息到。

虽然还是很担心我的功课。=.=

典型的临时抱佛脚，没办法。

我真的很想继续留在家。

家，真好！=)

VoC

我在VoC输了。

这个VoC在一开始就乱了套子。

电脑关了，没了slide，

现场的人开始乱了，自己也乱了套，可是还是强逼自己镇定的讲完。

完全在我预料之外会发生的事情发生了。

难受了，当上最诚实的感觉也出来了。

泪了，真的觉得很对不起自己，对不起一直在支持我的人。

我认为我可以做得更好，很可惜，我做不到。

本来跟自己讲好，一定要做到最好的。

人算不如天算。

我不知道怎么你会知道我出事了。

你发给我的短讯，我看了，泪的更厉害了。

不为什么，只是感觉的真的有人在支持我。

谢谢你，angelababy。=)

我真的很意外。

谢谢当下给我一个很温暖的抱抱的佳恩。

真的在那个时候，我最需要的是那个抱抱。

其实那个时候，我很讨厌我自己控制不了我的情绪。

我讨厌我的失控。

回答问题的环节，没有我想象中的紧张。

享受被人问问题，30秒后回答问题的刺激。

closing speech ，我真的很淡定，也已很开心的心情去讲完。=）

我喜欢我们12个人为了同一件事努力奋斗的感觉。

我喜欢我们12个人互相鼓励，打气。

我喜欢我们每个人讲完后，给彼此最真实的鼓励和祝福。

一路上，有你们真好。

给过了VoC的朋友，Interview 加油啊！！！=）

虽然，我输了，可是我还是很高兴我去试了。

我不会后悔，因为我不认为，我失去了什么。

我经历了整个过程，是累人的，紧张的。

很多人，都一直很关心我。

叫我开心点，没事的。

我想说，我真的没事。

这真的没什么。

跌倒了，站起来再走过。

只是，现在我需要的是说出来。

我很需要找人聊一聊关于整个过程。

他们的越是关心，越让我不敢说出来，我怕大家更加担心我。

说出来，我相信我会真的很好了。

疑惑都会揭开。

我不喜欢大家为我操心。

只是，让我有点时间来沉淀下吧。

也许我用笑容敷衍了你，对不起。

我还需要一些些时间来沉淀。

可是别担心，我真的还好。

亲爱的大家，我没事。

别瞎紧张了。

我是病了，累了，想沉淀而已。

最近我真的太过忙了。

VoC对我真的还好。

我只是需要休息。

说实在的，累翻了

我真的很需要停下来，让自己休息一下。

对不起啊，洁敏， 让你累坏了。

我很想回家，让自己任性的，躲在妈妈的保护层下。

想家了。

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11.41am, I should at my Macro class right now.

But then, I am in my hostel.

Yes, I skip again.@@

I know this is bad, but no choice, I need to do it.

I have a lot of stuff to finish by today.

I think I need train more in my time management.

So sorry, I will catch up my study after today.=)

Promise.=)

Yesterday,just come back from a awesome Langkawi trip with my interns.

It was kinda awesome and crazy.

We drink and drunk.@@

My 1st time to be like this.

Drink until 5am!@@

Crazy.

But it was so FUN!!HAAAHHA!!!

It is a very memorable moment with u all!

LOVE!!!=D

Today so many things to be done.

My interns will leave UUM on today, so bad that I can't dinner with them.

I so love this batch interns.

I miss every single one of them.

They make me feel worthy to be OC!=)

A thousand thank you to every single of them.

Thanks for the song in GF!=)

Kinda touch!

And, as well as, the birthday song and warm hug!=)

I will miss everyone them and I wish I can meet you all again in other city on the earth!=)

Take good care!

I love u guys!

6 hours to go,will be my VoC!

Yes, I had send my EB application.

Emm, I have no idea what will happening later.

Die die go le.

Hope everything will smooth!=)

God bless me.=)

To somebody who I care,

Recently we seems like less chit chat and talk,

I dunnoe what happened to u,

but BE CHEER!=)

I will always here If u need me!=)

解脱

终于，把那份manifesto做完，交上去了。

我松了一口气。

为了这份东西，我在24小时里灌了3杯咖啡，睡少过4个小时。

一直跟自己说不要放弃，做完了就可以睡觉。

谢谢Justin的 半夜开导和义气相挺，陪我熬夜。

谢谢buaya Eky的鼓励，在我最想放弃的时候，点通了我。=）

有你真好。=）

我现在已经累到不像话了。

可是还是觉得应该记录这件很值得光荣的事。

我挑战了自己，我真的很高兴。=）

21岁的生日礼物。=）

洁敏，生日快乐。

Random update=)

A very very short update!=)

Yes, my interns will leave at next week.

It is so damn fast!

I am very not willing to send them back to their country.=(

I very love this batch interns!

Their attitude and their mature!

Thumbs up!

Oh yea, my OCP and SC right now is at JAPAN!!!!

Please take good care on yourself and we are waiting you come back!=))

Enjoy and do have fun!=D

My academic is more and more harder .

It make me stress.=(

Seems like all the things become more tough and challenge.

I need more time on this .

Homework,assignment, tuitorial come together and pass up together.

I am wondering are all the lecturer pakat to do it?@@

I just hope I can pass this sem smoothly!=)

Beside, I already take one performance in this sem.

Yeap, is Boxx.

This performance will perform on EON's event night.

It seems like fun .

I just keep laughing while have a meeting with the others.=)

I feel happy to chit chat with them although they keep bully me!@@

Hope they won't bully me again!HAHA!=D

I think I need say CONGRATULATION to those people who elected as EBs!!!=))

Good job and well done!=)

Yes, EGM 3 is going to open!=)

Next tuesday will be the due date for the manifesto!

Thinking and thinking!

Go or stay?

Yesterday,someone say something to me and the sentences make me stunned.

"You can't always judge yourself,because you never experience the things before.

Why don't you try to let the person who experienced judge and tell you ,you suitable or not?

You keep judge yourself,you will lose your courages.'

It make me think a lots!=)

Thank you!=)

A letter to YOU =)

Dear all,

I am so sorry that I let you guys worry about me for a period. Well, I am really ok and fine here now. I admit previously I am not really good because of myself. After chat and consult by somebody, I feel more ok and relax. I released. That night, I cried like a idiot in EON cafe but the feeling is really awesome. I not need hide anything. I just be myself. Promise you and you, I will try to be myself and not hiding. Give me some time to practice it. Thank you for always being there to help ma and consult. I do appreciate it. Sometime I really dislike you two, just because I am easy to believe you two. The reason is what, I also dunnoe. =( But then, just keep it la. Promise you two, I will try to change little by little. I love you!!!thanks!

Many peoples doubt, why I din go to apply? Actually this all is due to personal problems. I am doubting on myself. I feel that I am not enough good and no qualification to do it. Got a person told me that, why you want think so much but is in a negative side? I stunned. People praised me, I will not really take it cause I scare they teased me. I am a kind of people which is no confident. I scare to step out my comfort zone.

Today the EGM2 is really inspired me. You guys are really awesome!! I do love u guys spirit ! Got a person ask me, If got round 3,will I go? I am thinking but I do wish to experience the VoC! It is seems like challenging and fun! No matter how, I need to say congratulation to who pass the VoC and good luck in the next round! for those who din pass, u guys did a well job!=)

Step out the 1st step is really hard, but am I willing to start the 1st step?=)

*p/s: SC, safe journey to back your hometown!

Dad and mummy, thanks!!! is glad to have u all!

Sincerely from

Snoopy

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知道自己不对劲了。

越来越想逃避了。

我不想呆在这里，我真的很想回家。

我想家了。

至少那里，我感觉到我是被保护的。

最近，

很多人问我好不好？

这问题很难回答。

我不知道我为什么突然间变成这个样子。

我很怕我被其他人知道我的状况。

真的累了。

不喜欢了。

为什么这么多突然的事情？

我已经快不知道我能应付到几时了？

何时我会崩溃然后真的不能应付了。

至少，

让我有一点点的私人时间，好吗？

我已经受不了时常的突变计划了。

责任感太重真的不怎么好。

突然间，笑真的好累。

我知道我不可以这样。

允许我，

任性吧，

我会好起来的。=）

累。泪。笑

是泪了也累了。

我很讨厌我自己这么没用，一直在流泪。

我没有自己想象中的勇敢。

一直以为自己的保护膜不会被揭开。

今天，彻彻底底的被揭开了。

我不喜欢，感觉自己被看穿了。

很难受，不喜欢。

我不是一直笑容满面吗？

我不是一直都很开心的吗？

为什么要看穿笑容底下的我？

我不喜欢。

酱子，我可能不会继续勇敢，我可能会崩溃。

我不喜欢把事情说出来，我相信自己可以解决。

我不希望我的事给其他人带来麻烦。

为什么你们看得出我的一切？

已经那么明显了吗？

可不可以，就让时间，停那么一下下？

我就快追不上了。

我很容易忘记我要的东西及迷失在时间里。

你们怎么看穿我，我在迷失了?!

我是迷失了。

我觉得压力了，不开心了。

我不知道我这次要多久找回来。

今天，我知道了，我只不过是一个酱脆弱的人。

一直以为我的伪装不可能让人看出，其实根本就很烂。

一直不想让人担心我，可是还是让人担心了。

我真的很累了。

今天，有人对我说，希望尽快看到你真心的笑容。

我很怕。

那人是怎样知道我不开心，不是真心的在笑。

开心的笑，是多久以前的事了？ 我 忘 了。

突然觉得要活在这世界上好难。

Busy

Yes,today be a bad girl and student.

I skipped all the class and try my very best to finish my stuff.

It is kinda tension.

My ' to do' list is full and I need to clear and finish it before this Sunday.

Recently, I am quite busy.

Let me be a bad girl one time.=(

I know it is not good.

The life is very busy.

Sometime,I busy till lost.

Luckily,I can find back.

I am wonder can I handle it?

I feel tired.

I know the speed of life wont change because of someone.

Life is still going on.

I do hope I manage to do it well.

I wish I can have a healthy life style as mum keep nagging me.@@

I wish I can try my best to attend all the class and dont skip it again..=)

I wish I can try my best to fill in my manifesto and find people be my proposer.

I wish I wont lost again in this busy life!

Some words to a special person.

I think you know who you are!=)

I will always by your side if you need me.=)

I am glad to have you.

Always support you and believe you.

Be tough !=D

Kay?

Alright,time to busy my stuff again.=D